Wednesday, March 28, 2007

miss indecisive!!!

If you closely observe a student's life, you would unmistakably notice the laws of applied terror and irony. foreg:when reviewing your notes before an exam, the most important will be the illegible ones.the more studying you did for the exam, the less sure you are as to which answer they want. and the most ironical of all is that 80% of the final exam will be based on the one lecture you missed about the one book you didn' t read...well those were the memorable days of error and terror. but unlike the other meticulous, meritorious students with high ambitions and aspirations who just seem too perfect for any sort of of flaw or frustration, i was different!!. as MURPHY'S law states,"IF ANYTHING CAN GO WRONG IT WILL!"this law seems too apt for me for i've been swaying all through my student life from wanting to be a biomedical engineer to a biotechnologist,
from a gynecologist to a geologist,
from an economist to a psychologist,
from allpoathy to homoeopathy to naturopathy to physiotherapy...from a broad casting journalist to a historian...!!!...oh what confusion!!..i'm in one of those frustrating,exasperating,aggravating and completely inescapable moments of making a choice with regard to my career.i want to know who i really am..to search within me the real me..to do what i will treasure and cherish, to which i would put in my whole hearted efforts and dedicate the rest of my life-that which will keep me going no matter how tough it gets or how rough it may seem-that which will keep the fires and flames of enthusiasm burning in me and for which the thirst of knowledge and wisdom would never be quenched........
to my plight, my dad's words of wisdom were the only consolation. he said, "DO THE THING YOU LOVE THE MOST AND LOVE THE MOST THE THING YOU DO!"
a meditative introspection left me clueless for i've varied interests like the scattered rays of the sun....i'm just mesmerised by the magnificient creation of GOD. i seem to love everything i see, n feel i should unravel the mysteries all around me!!!..my mom suggested that i should go for aptitude and IQ tests. i took it up seriously, timed myself and registered online.after 21 sets each of 100 brainstorming questions and mismatching my interests and skills, the computer seemed more indecisive than i was, for now my list of options trebled. the appointements and the meetings with the different career counsellors proved futile and fruitless for they all came to the same conclusion as my dad,"DO THE THING YOU LOVE THE MOST AND LOVE THE MOST THE THING YOU DO!"..and here i'm back to square one. i tried the HUMAN ANALOGY test which read my IQ as 131 and gave the following analysis:
No:1 do something instructive, knowledgeable,impressive,attractive,desirable yet practicable.
No:2 stay away from the catastrophic, calamitious numbers, quantities and statistics.
No:3 do something not too glamorous, not too utopian but yet humanitarian.
No:4 do something not too primordial yet not too sophisticated.
so and on were the test analysis which didn't seem to be taking me anywhere. what should i be? where should i start? then came my uncle who added a few more never ending saga of career options..he said, "hey you haven't yet considered being a meteorologist, an agriculturist, a gypsy, a prophet, a politician, or a clairvoyant??"............so here i'm still at logger heads with myself. the tensions and bickering don't seem to simmer down.
the clouds seem to have permanently stationed themselves over my head.the lightning and the thunder storms of indecisiveness have crowned and conferred upon the title of "MISS INDECISIVE".

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

magnifique, cette confession !

Anonymous said...

magnifique, cette confession !